loss, Lamott-style {10/7/13}

Help, I prayed with each in- and exhalation on Saturday, as my dog lay in the veterinary hospital.

Thanks , I whispered over and over again, as I stroked the soft fur between her eyes while she took her final breaths.

Wow , my husband said later, at home, reflecting back on the 14 amazing years of her life while we clung to each other in the kitchen.

Sandy Bear, may the cathedral of love you built in our hearts continue to be filled and expanded. You were a motherfucking awesome dog.