I know it's been a while since I've posted: rehabbing this hip has been a full time job. I'm happy to report that some (slow) progress has been made. I am currently down to one crutch.
These past three months have been so much more painful, fear and despair-filled than I anticipated. Because I was injured for so long I lost an enormous amount of strength. I've funneled all of my time and energy into rebuilding my body, and as such there hasn't been much focus on my heart or my head. I don't have any wisdom to share with you yet, beyond the fact that our first steps after any trauma--physical, mental, or spiritual--are shaky and uncertain. In the meantime, this quote from Louise Erdrich says the rest:
"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could."